Loneliness. It affects everyone, both directly and indirectly. Loneliness in terms of missing someone, feeling cut off from everyone or just plain being alone. Loneliness is not a huge theme in ‘Of Mice And Men’, but it is a theme that needs attention. We all suffer from it, some of us more than others. Sometimes, it depends on race or religion, other times, prejudices and cruelty. Leaving someone out, because they`re black, like Crooks. Not talking to someone much, because they’re old and dubbed senile, like Candy. Excommunicating someone because of a difference in religion or beliefs. All of this leads to the person in question being left with a feeling: loneliness. In a way, being alone can make the sentiment become your best friend. Like in my case.
From a very young age, I was outcast for my differences. I was overweight, and dubbed ‘too smart to have friends’. So no one played with me on the playground. No one wanted to come to my house, and no one invited me to theirs. I never went to any birthday parties, and few people came to mine. I only had one good friend, Jeremy. We met in kindergarten, and have been nearly inseparable since. His consistent friendship made up for the lack of people in my life. But when I moved from my home in Saskatchewan to British Columbia, all of that changed.
I lost touch with Jeremy. It crushed me. I still remember crying and staring out the window at him as we drove away. I was only 8 then. Once we moved, I became so depressed, that I cut myself off from the world. I refused friendships. I didn’t go outside unless I had to go to school. I sank myself into my schoolwork and ignored the rest of the world. I found Jeremy on Facebook when I was 11, but by then, the damage had already been done.
By the time I was 13, I was cutting myself. I cut to release the emotional pain within through a slit in my wrist. When the blood oozed, all the feelings of sadness and depression seeped out along with it. It made me feel better. I dyed my hair black and wore black clothing to show the world my pain. I felt that if my pain was shown on the outside of me, it would stop eating at me inside. I was wrong. It only got worse.
I felt like this quote from ‘Of Mice And Men’: “I ain’t got no people. I seen the guys that go around on the ranches alone. That ain’t no good. They don’t have no fun. After a long time they get mean. They get wantin’ to fight all the time. . .’’
Nowadays, I have more friends. I have more communication with the outside world. People and music helped drag me out of the pit that is loneliness. So, in conclusion, people suffer from loneliness, but it’s also people that help us through it.
This song helps me through my times of loneliness (really listen to the lyrics)
The caption is ‘Loneliness. If you find yourself struggling with loneliness, you’re not alone. And yet you are alone. So very alone.’ After listening to the song, I feel like this: